Im Useless Ka?

Today after movie i went home like usual - means taking bus..
Den suddently my fren XingEr call me to yum char at KotaRaya's Mc'D den ok lo i agree and went thr.. after yumchar+chit chat we went home together, we took u47 together since we live quite near to each other..
But something unfortune happened!!
She got rob in the bus!! infront of me!!
juz when we the door of the bus open when it reach flat sri sabah's station sudently a guy(im not sure he is an indon or wat but im sure he is definately not malaysian) snatch my fren's handbag(which contain her purse, hp & etc) and run out of the bus~!! immidietly my fren scream for help and i rush out to chase the thief~ i get him by his shirt but he manage to swing off my hand and escaped!!
I juz feel im so useless LOL!! wat Kendo 1-dan!! wat judo yellow belt(not very pro though) but still cant caught the thief for my fren!!
SHAME SHAME SHAME~~ i keep apologies to my fren for not able to help her but she said nvm it not my fault~ but still i feel so unhelpfull to her~
haihz!!

I feel that im like a fool!!

Why do you have to make me miss you so much?
Why do you want to mae me so sad?
Why do you want to give me hope at the first place,
Since you know that it wont end up like what i wanted it to be at last?
Why do you want to make me look like such a fool who obsessed into you?
Does it make you feel better if i really look like a fool that you wanted me to look like?
Does it make you happier if i really became a fool for you?
Will i make you smile if i willing to become a puppet that will do whatever according to yur wish?
Will i make you laugh if i willing to become a clown and perform in front of everyone for you?
If it really makes u feel better~~ Then i rather to look like a fool that obsessed into you~
If it really make you happier, Then i willing to look like a fool that you wanted me to be~
If it really make you smile, then i willing to become a puppet for you~
If, it really will make you laugh~ I WILL BE A CLOWN AND PERFORM INFRONT OF THE PUBLIC FOR YOU!!

What i truely desire,
Is you Smile,
IS, your laughter,
Is that you happily called me "MIKI",

Please dont give me that much of hope, if you has know that you will let me down at the end..

For every Hope you gv me will make me feel like dying~
For every hope u given me and yet u let me down will make me feel like worse then dying~

I beg you~ pls dont give me any hope ANYMORE!!!

You already had make me feel like dying so pls dont make me feel like worse then dying anymore~


IM SUFFERING!!!
SOS- Save My Soul!!

Maroon 5 : Wont Go Home Without You~

I Love Tis song very very much~
Basically i love most of Maroon 5's song~

I had a dream

I had a dream last nite LoL~
din really remember dat clearly juz somehow remember it started wif,
Im on a journey wif a boy(pretty handsome i remember) in order to search for something important(din remember wat is it)..
Den we walk and walk for so long from places to places(i remember the places change vry fast =.=) Kampung(japnese style ^^ ) to empty city, den go desert, den many places la, and finally i dunno y but somehow we reach Kl,,,,,,, =.=" Kl also nvm la somehow dunno y in middle of the romantic journey we end up at KL Tmn Segar's Pasar Malam,,,,, LOL!!!!
den dunno y also la someone chase us(the boy and me) and we fight wif the bad guy (in the middle of pasar malam lol - but somehow the pasar malam look empty i remember)...
I clearly remember the people we are fighting is somehow a group of ninja but dunno y la suddently a Gundam appear =.=" den dunno y also we suddenly got a rocket den, PHEEEWWWW~ we shoot de gundam and dunno y also the Gundam turn into ULTRAMAN~
=.=""""""
den dunno y also sudentlly the ninja which is suppost to b our enemy turnning helping us tofight the ultraman.. LOL!!!
Den dunno how and dunno y~ suddently RIKIMARU from dOTa appear =.= and den my suppost to b very romantic dream turn very LUAN adi =.=
after RIKIMARU den somehow pulak DOREMON come and save us by its MULTI-DOOR..
after reach a safe place by doremon's multi door~ and den dunno how la which i din remember dat clearly me and my handsome boy went to SOUL SOCIETY jor..... =.= den we saw ICHIGO AND TOUZEN fighting...
WTH is tis =.=
den somehow my alarm ring and i woke up blur blur~



WARNING~
Doing too much assignment or being too stress will make u hav dream like me,
ALERT, ALERT!!!
Stop doing too much assignment REST/HEALTH COME 1ST!!!

I hav done something wrong~

Its saturday i suppost to b very happy coz is the lastday of schooling for tis week~
But i juz cant b dat happy i usually be~
coz i hav done something wrong last nite~
something i shouldnt do, something very wrong,
Oh God Save me~ im gonna b very headache starting from now on ward~

My True Headache

Lately wats make me headache the most often is not assignment, but is J..
It keep nagging me~ MY GOD!!!
Wheather im going out wif my fren or going out wif my family J also wanna knw abt~
Im sicking wif it's atittude~
Anyone help me!! GOD!!
They way J keeping track on me is like my Fiancee oni nia,
If i tried to ignore J, not picking up its phone or not replying its sms and den it will start doing stupid things~
=.=
HAIHZ~

Frens i reli nid idea on how to reject someone~ Giv me some solid idea okay~
I reli dunno wat t do wif J anymore~

I see You in my eyes again

Its Friday again,
i cant stop myself from turning my head toward the posittion u r sitting at,
I dun hav the courage to walk foward and talk to u,
for i afraid that u'll ignore me..

I often ask my self what actually is LIKE?
But seems that until now i couldn't find the answer that can satsfy my question~
I fail to search the answer i wan..

We often us the word Like to describe the food we favorite, we also use Like to describe the things we favorite...
But wat abt people?
If we use the word Like on people will it hav different meaning of different effect?
We used it on frens, but wat about if we used it in people we like the most?
Someone special i mean~
Will effect will we get?
is it somehow different?


~HUMAN~
human, a coward creature~~
we often dun dare to do tis dun dare to do dat,
dun dare to say tis dun dare to say dat,
if human somehow got more courage, will everything in our life change?


Somehow i alwiz wish dat i hav more courage,
at least some courage to go near you,
courage to sit beside you,
and courage to say, [HI] to u..


IM A COWARD~~~~!!!!!!!!!!